| | Sunday is the first day of camp. YES. I'm super excited. The camp dixie crowd will be joined by a group of kids from florida, boone, and south africa. Quite the mix. I'm pretty anxious about the music. The normal drummer, ross, won't be there, soooo it will be interesting. May end up being straight acoustic with me, lafevers, and nathaniel. I think that would be a cool change of pace....but i'm bias. I'm excited for all my friends this summer. Everyone is kinda doing their own thing, going different ways. It's cool. Nolan is in minnesota, melissa in is indiana, etc. After camp weeks are over, i'll be heading to California for three weeks to do summer ministries. Basically i'll just be a camp counselor in california and get paid to do it. Heck yeah! I need to get a tan. Tonight, i'm going camping. Kerr lake. Oh yeah. Me, brothers, grandpa, mom, dad, brothers friends, uncle, cousin, and tyler. yay. btw, tyler is going to be working at camp! NO i didn't make him. He asked me about it and then he applied and it all worked out from there. This is exciting b/c i was sad about having to leave. I have no idea what will happen after summer. I'm all set up to go to school. I don't know. I'm glad that i'll have the oppurtunity to be away from everything for 3 weeks in california...you know...away from parents telling you what to do with your future, away from friends...i know that sounds bad, but i think i need to be alone for a few weeks. You graduate high school and the first thing people say is "pick a school". No one says, do you want to go to school? Are you interested in school? Just....pick a school...nothing further. I think this is a mistake. I don't think everyone is meant for school. School isn't meant for everyone. I understand it may make job hunting a bit easier in the long run... but this is all part of the big "American dream". Get an education so you can get a good job and have a big house bla bla bla. I'm not sure that that is for me. It's hard to know what you like doing, know what you're good at, know what you want to do for the rest of your life, and not be able to do it now b/c a few people think it would be safe to go to school first. Four years isn't that much in the grand scheme of things....but it is a long time to spend doing something that isn't for you. If i go to school, it will be because my parents want me to. It won't be because i want to go and get a degree. I just feel like if i'm going to go and spend their money, i should want to go. I don't want them to spend money and me not even want to be there. Saying all this makes me think, you have the oppurtunity to go school, not everyone has that chance, you should take advantage of it. But at the same time, i know what i want to do. The sooner i don't have to think about school, the sooner i can get to it (the future that i desire). School. ugh. If i decide not to go...i will def be kicked out, or atleast told to move out, get a job, and make it on my own. Which is cool with me. |
